Pessimist.

Bout 10 days till i go back to Idaho land. Not sure how i feel about it.

More nervous for this semester than any other for some reason. Maybe it’s just having new room mates. Maybe it’s new classes. or the fact that i absolutely hate the wind in rexburg and snow and stuff.
Also, everyone always talks around me like “Oh em gee, that was the hardest semester i’ve faced. Wow. Crying every night out of stress. No friends. Boys spitting on me. Blah blah” and i’m just sorta… expecting a bad semester. SImply because everyone else has bad semesters here and there, so it’s my.. turn? Which isn’t logical– i know whether i’m happy or not depends solely on my attitude. And i have a pretty good one. Just nervous.

Kinda feel like i don’t belong in one place anymore. Guess i’ve been feeling like that for a while though. It’s just starting to hit me harder. People are becoming home to me- wherever they are. Wherever cody is, or melissa is, or my sister is, or jamie is, or my parents are, or amy or marky or a few choice other people…. but places don’t really mean much to me anymore. I’d love to just travel. Go on a huge awesome road trip to alaska or go to china and teach english or just serve my mission wherever they send me. I don’t feel grounded anywhere anymore.

It’s weird being grown up. I still feel like i’m a little 14 year old girl sometimes. But i’m almost 20. Big difference. I know people my age and younger that are MARRIED. My sister was married at my age. I’m not quite there yet, haha.

Got some awesome stuff coming up though. Recording with Jenny Phillips. Going back to Idaho. Meeting new people. Got no real reason to complain.

And the winner is… Drum roll please…

SO HOLY FREAKING HECK CRAP.

Remember like. Two blogs ago when i mentioned that Jenny Phillips contest thing? That i was like “Psh, i’m not gonna win.”

Well. Your girl won. 1st freaking place.

Let’s have a moment of silence.

So this is what happened.
I was in a horrible mood cause i was trying to hurry and buy a braves game ticket online but it wouldn’t let me, and i was SO sad cause i really wanted to see this guy i thought was gonna go (he didn’t show, btw). So i’m trying to figure this out, and i get a phone call from some number.
“Hello?” i muttered in the most depressed, pitiful tone.
“Hey, is this Erica Verner’s number?” my guardian angel responded.
“Yeah?” i muttered, still depressed.
“Well, this is Jenny Phillips. And i’m calling with some exciting news…”

Needless to say, i perked up quite a bit.
What does that mean, you might ask? Well, folks, that means that on September 1st i am going to record a song that will be on the next Young Women’s theme cd that goes out to all the YW and stuff. And i’m pretty sure it will be sold in deseret stores and such.
I know it doesn’t sound like that big a deal, and to people who aren’t mormon it’s definitely lame sounding, but I’M FREAKING HONORED. This is like, the coolest, best thing that has ever happened to me.

I’m still just…. in shock. This is insane. Stuff like this doesn’t happen to me.

Maybe this will be like the movie Inception. Maybe Jenny Phillips is a projection from my subconscious, and this is all a dream.
I feel like it would be appropriate for me to end this blog with a little black thing spinning, then cutting it off to leave the suspense of if it’s really a dream or not.

But i’m not gonna do that.