So, we are officially about 6 weeks away from moving away from Rexburg, ID. And we still have no idea where we’re heading. Well, we have an idea, but we still won’t know for sure for probably a few weeks. Gonna be cutting it close, and I don’t know about you guys, but this whole not having control over what’s happening thing is pretty crazy!
I’ve also been stressing out about where we’ll live. How long we’ll rent an apartment. How soon we should buy a home. How we’ll furnish and decorate and how soon. The inner interior designer in me is just ITCHING to paint some walls, and the idea of moving to another apartment I can’t change to my own needs bums me out.
However, I was just looking through some old baby pictures of me and my sister. Instead of just staring at our adorable faces (and my enormous body), I paid attention to the background of the pictures. The furniture wasn’t that nice. In one picture, there was wall paper coming off one wall. We were always in transition, never stayed anywhere longer than 6 years. We didn’t live in an official “house” until I was 13 years old.
But I didn’t think about that back then. I didn’t care what the couch looked like… Heck, I peed on our couch. I didn’t care about the color of the walls or how the place was decorated or if I had the nicest clothes. My mom loved us so much and was always with us, and my dad came home from work every day and gave us the biggest hugs. And we were happy and content.
Changes in scenery were exciting. Mistakes and messes were common. I spent most of my time making forts and playing with dirt and barbies.
My life wasn’t perfect. There were hard times, and I’m sure my parents dealt with stresses that I had no idea about. But the point is, I don’t remember that. And it’s comforting to know that my children will not be disappointed in me if things aren’t perfect.
I’ve decided to live in the moment, instead of stressing out over being “settled” somewhere. Life is always changing, and so am I.
So here’s to never being settled, never feeling prepared for what’s ahead, and looking for the best in whatever life throws at us.