When I Can’t.

Today was rough.

By 10am I had already yelled more than I care to admit. Amy┬áhad already exerted all the strength her 42 pound two-year-old self could muster against me as I tried to get her into the carseat, then once she realized we were going to the gym she lost her ever-loving crap. And then the rest of the day was braking up fights between my two kiddos and trying to keep up on the house while also wishing I could just zone out and watch some trashy TV while eating things I shouldn’t.

So really, business as usual. But guys. Motherhood can be HARD. It’s draining. Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually draining. And some days we just get through the day and I call it a win.

This song is about those days.

I actually started writing it laying in my bed, literally listening to my kids cry in their rooms because I had put them to bed earlier than they were used to and I was just DONE.

I love this song. It’s one that just fell out naturally (why does that sound like some kind of child-birth reference?). As I was writing it, I just felt this relief… like Jesus was saying “Go ahead and rest. I’ll take over from here.”

Anyway. Here’s the lyric video. And heres to all you mamas who just made it through the day today.

 

Motherhood Is.

So, a couple months ago I released my first album, Motherhood Is.

And then motherhood took over, so I have done a crappy job at promoting the album. I have these fantasies where I’m like a social media expert and am all up on instagram and facebook and my blog and keeping up with it all. But fact is, these songs I wrote… they describe my situation very well. It’s busy and exhausting and all-consuming. I honestly don’t know how I even made an album. Especially considering I was unmedicated at the time, ha!

[side note: a blog post or so ago I bragged about how I was getting off of SSRIs. After months of debilitating panic attacks, I’m back on the med train. So kudos to those of you who have successfully gotten off the stuff and have figured out other ways to rock at life. And kudos to those of us who realize we have a serious problem and actually legitimately need help from medication.]

ANYWAY!

I’m finally getting around to making lyric videos for these songs so they can be up on Youtube. The songs are available wherever you download your music; amazon, iTunes, all that stuff.

Now lets talk about the album’s namesake, this song, Motherhood Is.

It took me a while to finish this song. This one came in bits and pieces. And a few of the lyrics actually came from me asking on Facebook what people would describe motherhood as. I got some great responses, and the rest of the song came together.

I think this song encapsulates (lets pretend I know what that word actually means. I think it means… I don’t know. It sounded right and spell-check didn’t give me a red squiggle so lets go with it) young motherhood in all of its messy, embarrassing, frustrating, gross, amazing, beautiful glory. Motherhood has completely changed me and I’m so grateful for that.

So here it is, “Motherhood Is”. Tell your friends, subscribe, thumbs up, you know.